Looks of 2009.... some anyway... :-)

this latest phase of life started loooooong ago... a little eyeliner here, a shiny lip there... the occasional platform that wouldn't look too feminine... in 1997 I danced in drag as an Indian woman with a friend Mara for a family party for her grandmother (I think)... so convincing that when I changed and came back as a boy many didn't realize it was me... unfortunately I have no pictures of that.... in 2004 when Enoch and I were tortured souls at DEEP, that skirt woke something up that just blossomed in August 2009. It was the same Enoch that painted me for the tortured souls night, that got me ready for the late DRRRAMA in Los Angeles. It was early August and I'd designed a pink tshirt with tulle and scissor work... i just needed a fierce face to set off the white wig i'd chosen to be my DRRRAMA wig... and that's when the looks of 2009 started... hope you like..

(some looks are not shown due to external harddrive drama!!!!!)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

facebook quiz - thought-provoking?!

In a quiz called "What is the Symbol of Your Personality?" my result was...

"You are not yourself right now. It's not that you are not YOU, you're just not sure this is your full potential. At this point in life, you are not sure of anything. You doubt your doubts, and your personality is just an enlargement of other things in life, of other personalities of others'. You are unstable and you want someone near you, but even of them, you are not sure. You feel like you mold into other people's personalities and you are very multilateral. (Not two-faced)."

I don't think i could have said it better myself... (I'm gonna put in my healing and meditation cd to listen as I type...just popped into my head. Albert's snoring and Kathie Lee and Hoda are boring)
But anyhoo, it says that I am not myself right now and I agree 100%. This is probably the longest time I have spent being unemployed and before it would have bothered me...for some reason now, it doesn't. Of course the job hunt is nuts and the money is tighter than I'd like it to be, but I have never been mentally happier....I think. I do agree that I am not using my full potential and I feel that I am making steps towards strenghthening myself and maximizing my potential. It also says that I am not sure of anything, and that i have doubts... I hate to say it, but when your money is limited it makes you unsure of lots of shit (as the upstairs neighbor's music *banging* adds beat to my soundscapes environment, ha! see, plans are always subject to change). But, I think it's okay to be unsure. it's definitely okay not to know...when you don't know, you find out. Finding out may not always be fun, but in the end when you know, you'll be happier. Weird and plain, but I think to the point. It goes on to say that my personality is just an enlargement of other things in life, of other personalities of others'. I am still trying to understand the latter half of that one.... An enlargement of other things in life I sorta get, but of other personalities of others'? So am I understanding correctly by assuming that they mean that my personality is a reflection of people's other personalities? if you could help me understand that, i'd appreciate it. :-) Next, it slaps me with saying that I'm unstable.... Thanks. As if I didn't already know that! ha! but aren't we all a little unstable. Don't we all have doubts? Don't we all doubt others? and their intentions?..... so saying unstable to me is like saying Human. and as far as molding into people's personalities... I feel that I can usually read people and identify with them, on some way. I am a very unique and independent person, but we all need to be flexible and able to indentify with different points of view... so there, take that quiz! :-) 

and then, in a "What is Your Spirit Animal?" quiz, my result was CROW...

"As a Crow, you are analytical, adaptable, and exceedingly clever. You like solving problems, sharing a hearty laugh with friends, and most of all, enjoying a good meal. Your inquisitive, philosophical nature leads you to constantly question authority and the status quo, sometimes just for the sake of asking, "Why?" "

Like this one! ... and I've always like crows as well... not much else to say on that... the first one however made me stop. and to think, my friend Cristina's result was "Bountiful Basket" wow!

until next time
jickyrones

thank you SO much for giving me the time of day :-)

photos by Ricky Jones Jr, San Pedro, CA '09